Tantangan hidup?

Senin, 22 Des 08..
Makin hari aq makin down nih..
Ad hal2 bru yg bwt aq sukacita.
Tp ad hal2 laen jg yg bwt aq sakit hati, sepi, n ngerasa ga dhargai..

Untuk pertama x nya..
Aq menangis sampe
ingusq
ad DARAHny dikit..

Ajaib bgt ya.

Kalut, lemes, lesu,

Yah.
Itulah hari ini.
Endingnya ga enak..
Dh jam 12 mlm pas..bsk dah minggu..

Hr ini aneh aj aku.
Lg stress mungkin?
Aq bad m0od, sedih..

Di saat2 kyk gini tuh aq pngen ad DEVI, ato sejenisny yg maen brg aq.. Ngajak aq "masuk" ke duniany, untuk tertawa..
Atau,, maen sama adekku,,tapi syg bgt.. Aku ga pernah punya adek.. Kakak pun ga.. Dsini ga ad s0dara yg serumah ma aq,yg pny wkt bwt share brg..
Padahal td pas aksi natal, yah sukacita pastilah..
Tp kok mulainya telat,
aq jd pulang telat..(pdhl dah pulang duluan drpd yg laen).. Nelp rmh blg kalo lg mw prjalanan, eh kena marah, trus mlm2 aq lari2, ng0s2an nae jmbatan pnybrangan sendrian, nae angk0t..

Then, aq yg udh cemas bakal kena marah langsung, dturunin ma supir angkot dkr.jati..
Ga bisa ngmg ap2..
Cma rasa sedih kok yg mnd0minasi..

Nyampe rmh, dgn angk0t yg brbeda..aq dturunin jauuuh bgt..
Capeny jalan lg..

Trus kena marah,
yah. Emang.. Aq yg slh.. Kukra bakal dah slese jm 7,jd aq blg ke mama plgnya jam 7 mlm..
Trnyta lewat jauh.

Dh gtu aq bwa mtr ke kilo.. (spy bsa brg wini jalan kaki ke rapak,pas prg)
kalo aq ga ke kilo bwa mtr pas s0re, aq pasti bsa ikt aksi natal sampe slese..

Huhu..

Aq lg pngen dperhatiin neh..
Td tuh, pulangny pngen bgt ga sndirian.. Mau bareng sapa kek, kevin, ato winni, whoever!!

I dun wanna be alone..!!!

Aq ngerasa sepi..
Kegiatan padat pula..
=C

untung malam ni bsa nangis.. Lumayan lha.. Kayakx mending kalo bsa nangis mbil share dblog.. Meski aq tuh,saat kyk gni, pengen numpahin ke diaryku..tp diaryku ad drumah, bukan dsni..

Aq lagi ngerasa down.. Ngerasa jadi org yg ga dperhatiin ma temen2ku..

Temen2ku yg paling care c,cuma 1..

Kalo ga ad dy, ga tau lha..

Aku sayang anak kecil.

"mi,mi,mi..
Mi atas. Mi bawah..
Mi depan, mi belakang..
Mi 1 2 3, mi 3 2 1..
Mi gulung, gulung, gulung..
Ping..sut.."

ahaha.. Maenan lama nih. Tp bru kumainkan lg scara langsung, bersama adek sepupuku bru2 aj.. (ank SMA yg ga tau malu ato ap nih?=p)

trus ad lg. Mau?
"dimulai,,
nama-nama..
Hewan.. (boleh dganti dgn buah,benda, dsb.)
trus lanjutkan dgn nama yg dtentukan, ga boleh dulang, n jangan ampe loading lambat, kalo mikir lbh dr 3 detik, tangan harus dbedakin ma lawanx.. Haha. N lg, tepukanx harus sesuai. Pertma, tepuk atas brsama lawan, lalu tepuk bwah dgn tangan sndri.. Begitu sterusny.. (hrus seirama!)

kan ce n0vi, ce2 sepupuku merit tgl 7 des 08.. Nah, sbtu malam, mrka dtg.. KelQ dr samarinda..
Ad mei2 yg lebai namany DEVI. Haha.
Ma ce2ny (te2p mei2q),namany deby.
N ma kdua ortunya..

Asik maenan n blajar ma ank itu..
Cma sayang aj, pas nginep, ga bsa tdr barenk. Huhu..
Tp aq dh dkiss 1x lho ma dy..
Lumayan lah, kenang2an..
Akan kuingat sepanjang masa.. Hha. XD

dy tuh, emang cucu plg kcil, yah jd mei2q yg plg kcil jg..
Dh 2 SD nih. Tp pinter bkn maen, n also lebai.. Haha.
Tp ga ap lha. Kn ank kcil.. Te2p bsa dkerjain kok..hhi.
Asik asik..

Ga sbaran menanti ta0n dpan, cepat2 dtg, supaya aq bsa ktemu n maen,jalan,n blajar brg dy lg.. =)

hihi.

[The m0re we get together.. The happier will be.. ]

Posting, posting, posting yang banyak.

Talk about today's..
Hhe.

Wes mari try outnya nih.
Lega.
Tp td tuh tes amecc, pmbagiannya beda dr yang biasa..
Kok tumben2ny, sekelas ma fendy,andry,andrew,erico.. 4sekawan..
Ckck..

Trus tuh,tesnya maem wkt banget.. Fiuh. Tapenya eror, jd pas udh ngu kasetnya lama(operan) sambil isi bagian reading, eh pas udah datang kasetnya, lagi dngerin soal listening malah ngadat..tiba2 dr n0 58,langsung loncat no 81..nah lo..
Jd tnggu lg mam dewi(oh ya,pengawasku c bindam toenk2 pas study alam,haha.)
dambilkannya tape yg baru,
trus kita listening dgn "ceria",mpe no 100!
Dahsyat.hha.

Yah,jd pas bel bru ngumpul..telat dah. Trus ke kelas, jualan lg dah. Haha.
Ist trasa bntar bgt. Trus bu faizah dtg,kta ul komp.. Dan aq mengerjakan dgn jurus rahasiaku.. (yg kenal aq, pasti ngerti maksudx ap. Hihi)
trus keluar kelas, puji Tuhan, ad yg beli lg. Haha. Jualanku habis cuy!
Seneng bgt.. Pdhl dh ngira bkal sisa, tp d0aku dkabulkan.=D

oh ya.. Ngomong2 soal bisnis, aq dh brhasil nabung bwt bli kacamata terapi. Sebenerny uangku msh kurang, tp untungx mamaku mau nambahin.. Thx God..
Btw, aq minta dukungan doa bwt ksembuhan mataku y.. Pengen n0rmalin mata neh, ato ga ya kcilin minusx lha. Hhe.
Soalny aq dh ktergantungan ma kcmt nih, ga bae bgt.. N jd ga nyaman tiap keg outd0or indo0r kalo ga pake kacamata.. Fiuh..
Pdhl pke kcmt trus2an tuh ga bae..

Yah. Keep on fighting!
*sedank berjuank.
Gbu all.

I Love Revolution!

Mm. Lama ga ngepost neh.=C
Aq mw crita ttg SFC neh. Tp cape ngetiknya.. Di lain wkt deh.ok say?=p

aq lg mw bicarain soal perubahan.. Hhe..
Aq seneng nih, temen2q bnyak yg brubah (menjadi lbh baek tentunya).. Dkelas tuh, udah ad be2rapa ank yg jd smangat blajar tanpa nyontek, ad jg yg jd smangat ngerjain tugas dll.. Hebat deh!

QCritain yah..[lalala]

Si A,yg tadix males,duduk dpojok2,jd pndah tmpat duduk agak dpan(ngaruh ga c?!=D )trus jd lbh sering nanya kalo dy ga ngerti ssuatu,n mw dengerin pnjelasan dr org yg dy tanya..

Si E,yg suka ga nyatat catatan,yg suka dgr musik pas pelajaran, eh jd smangat blajar, apalagi pas matik..wah,salut..dy brani nanya,n nyambet tu tgz2 tanpa ngeluh, kdg malah suka bersajak2(nyanyi2) sambil ngerjainnya.. Haha..

Si Y,jagonya ngerpek..suka pesimis bgt.. Eh,wkt it dy kna remed matik, dy mw blajar bwt it lho..

Si R, jd lbh care ma tgz n ul, pny prsiapan minimal shari sblm hr H..

Si Dn ma Dt, jd rajin sholat..n jg mw usaha krjain ssuatu sendiri,meski blm rutin c..
Hhe.

It sbgian temen2q yg dah brubah..
Seneng bgt liatnya lho. Wanna be like them?
=)

oh ya.. Aq lg panas dalam nih. Huhu. Skt tnggorokan.. 2hr ini tiap tdr, wkt bngun, pasti mataQ Kotorannya agak banyak dr biasanya..trnyata itu gejala panas dalam..
Aq baru tau.. Hmm.

Udhn dlu y.
Mpe nanti dpostingan brikutny! Thatha.
Gbu all.

Telat ngepost..=c

Kamis kelabu (lebai)
kok bnyak betul jam pel kosong..
Awal msk 2jam, kosong, kesenian..
Hbs it mtk 1jam, ad blajar..
Stelah itu sejarah, 1jam, kosong lg..

Hmm. Sbnrnya enak jam kosong..
Tapi. Entah knapa aq merasa laper terus2an tiap jam kosong..
I don't understand this. Haha.

Tw ga readers. Minggu2 ni aq jd byk maem dskul. Swt dah.
Blm lg drumah, pagi ma malam mnum susu.. Y amplop..
Bagus apa buruk y? Hmm. Aq tengah merenungkan dampak makan banyak maem n ngemil saat nganggur.. :s

eh. Skalinya bu yuli msk kok, telat aj trnyata. Hh0.
Aq belajar dlu y.
C u .. ^^

Banjir di SmaRaDha

ooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhh tiiiidaaaakkkkkkkkkkkkkk....!!
(harap jangan dibayangkan dengan aksen teletubbies..)

Gilanya.
banjir di skulku...

dri selese imtaq td dah ujan. tiba2 deres gtu khan.. ya udah ga jd pulang deh.. huf..
jadinya aq makan siang n ngobrol bareng temenku, si X (halah)...
trus redaan khan, bru aq ketemu hasbi (bukan tasbih lho y..=p)
kita ngobrol2 soal masa depan kami nanti (masing2 tentunya..haha) trus ngeliat anak2 CL pemanasan.. n then ujan trus bgitu deras... hiks...
saaaaaaaangaaaaaaaat deeeeeeraaaaassssss..... jdi kita ke lab, ngenet deh...

Bru ga lama, ada bu Yeni kimia (ups) dateng, kstw banjirnya wes ngeri.. ga kayak biasanya (aneh bgt), trus Hasbi ngeliat dr korden lab, n ngajak aq liat.. Ternyata bener... NGERI... Masa mpe lobi, ke dalam lg, ga umum banget.. Paretnya ga nampung tuh.. Payah..

Semoga yg kyk gini ga trulang lagi.. amiin..
Untung aja ni jumat dah jam pulang. Klo ini banjirnya pas jam KBM, pada heboh dah n kerepotan jga tentunya.. hmmm


last words: ckckckckckck......

My Dreams

I have dreams...
yes.. Not only one.. But many dreams are inside my mind, heart and soul...
Dreams to reached out...

I am fighting to reach them, with God's power... Because, without Him, I am nothing...

He gives me strength to rise, to stand up in every problem, to smile n thanks when I am in the hardship, to laugh together with my friends n family, to shout when tears block my voice, n to do many things that I can't do by my self...

My dreams: ◘ present to my family, especially my mom n dad (+), dedicated my success life fot both of them...
then, be a nice God's disciples, share my light for everyone in the world... n last, be a really powerful n cheerful yenni....

just be my self, do my best in every second, n give the rest to God....

^^

Celine Dion - Because You Loved Me

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I’ll be forever thankful baby
You’re the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You’re the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ’coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I’m grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don’t know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ’coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You’ve been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ’coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ’coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me

I’m everything I am
Because you loved me


*ni lagunya celine, yang dia mw persembahkan buat papanya..
baguss bangeetttt liriknya. ya kan?

entah kenapa, sosok papa itu berarti banget di hidup... makinnn terasa saat kita udah ga bisa ngerasain kehadirannya lagi..
Tapi, buat papa yang ga pernah "hadir" lagi...
Aku mau TETAP bahkan LEBIH kuat, sabar, ceria n semangat...
readers, please pray 4 me in this hardship that i wanna go out...

GBU all

If Only U Could See Me Now (Celine Dion)

Here they come
Every nite d same
silent stars
Lite from a distant flame
Just like d memories of u
that I hold inside
I see u touch
But all d warmth has died..

Empty rooms
crowded by d past
Time is my enemy
Days keep moving faster
But d nites alone can be an eternity
That never heals the scars
of foolish pride..

If only u could see me now
Goodbye is not so easy now
That freedom that I walked away to gain
is nothing but these chains
That u alone can break
n u would free me now
ur heart would come undone
Just looking at me once
n my love would bring u back
If only u could see me now..

Here I am
Stranger to smile
Trying to fight d tears
Missing by a mile
I'm not d one who laughed at u
on that yesterday
When u warned me
Not to throw ur love away..

If u could only see me now
Goodbye is not so easy now
the freedom that I walked away to gain
is nothing but these chains
I know ur heart would break
If u could hear me now
ur heart would come undone
If u could hear me once
Hoping love will bring u back
If only u could see me now..

Like d lonely moon
u see above
That sails d dark alone
forever
I have no lite of my own
Other d love we've known
So long ago
Together..

If u could feel me now
ur heart would come undone
If u could touch me once
I know love will bring u back
If only u could see me now..

* i love d lyric of dis song, it just like my words to my papa.. Hehehe. But not 100% the same.. N 1thing, i think i dun ever hear this song yet.. Still searching for it..
=)